rollercoasterhttp://creativegenius.blog.co.uk/en-EUhourly82000-01-01T12:00+00:00rollercoasterhttp://creativegenius.blog.co.uk/http://data5.blog.de/design/preview/c7/939d3758239a95967ed21af9dd4807_160x200.jpgStarting to bloghttp://creativegenius.blog.co.uk/2007/04/10/starting_to_blog~2068404/2007-04-10T22:33:18+02:00 <p>well who am I? - a 25 year old single mother to 2 children aged 10 and 5, with 2 cats 4 rabbits and a beagle puppy as from some stage tomorrow. i live in hertfordshire in a three bedroomed house which looks rather like a pig sty at the moment - a combination of kids on easter break, not clearing up after anybody for over a week, and typical adhd i'm struggling to get motivated to sort it out. Instead i'm here finding something else to do to distract me from housework.</p> <p>Not only do i have adhd (taking concerta 54mg daily when i remember) but i have more recently been diagnosed (though for the 2nd time) as manic depressive (taking quetiapine 200mg nightly - which knocks me out for 10-12 hours usually - but somehow have forgotten over the last few days! - thus my mood has been a tad on the irritable, impulsive and today actually rather depressed side!)<br> - wooo whooo best of both worlds!</p> <p>It's going to be great fun bringing home a new puppy tomorrow to mess and devastation - what am i thinking and -why am i not tidying?</p> <p>my daughter is away for the week statying with friends in cornwall and i was supposed to be decorating her room (a several day job at my pace) - i have piles of washing and a load of ironing which has been left for so long i'll probably have to rewash it to get the creases out and i'm losing more and more floor space by the day to countless junk which seems to reproduce itself.</p> <p>yet I have spent the last few days doing other things - spending money we didn't really have taking my son to a theme park, running round shopping for items i didn't really need and flitting from friend to friend's houses (as i over-booked myself as usual)not to mention looking for puppy supplies following falling in love with a lemon and white beagle earlier in the week - having to borrow a few hundred pounds to purchase her too - which i should really have geared towards home improvements - or more practically paying for my car insurance or paying a bill!</p> <p>i am adding chaos to chaos yet i'm still driven to go all the way down to collect the beautiful little pup (3 and a half hours each way!) </p> <p>but then that is just me - i know what i should be doing but somehow i cannot bring myself to do it.</p> <p>and now i have wasted all of the time that i had available to tidy up and i feel absolutely exhausted . . . ready for bed! (have been managing of 3-4 hours - if that most nights this week - probably through forgetting to take quetiapine!)</p> <p>judgement call i think it has to be time for bed - and i must remember to take my tablet and hope i wake up in a better frame of mind tomorrow! -otherwise i'll procrastinate for another few hours (not wanting to do housework) getting to bed after 2/3 am - i that happens i wont take my tablet as it will knock me out for so long and i will have my son awake early tomorrow - and then I will be as grumpy as hell for my 7 hour round trip and essential tidying that i must do before bringing puppy home!!!</p> <p> <small> <a href="http://creativegenius.blog.co.uk/2007/04/10/starting_to_blog~2068404/#comments">Comments</a> </small> </p>well who am I? - a 25 year old single mother to 2 children aged 10 and 5, with 2 cats 4 rabbits and a beagle puppy as from some stage tomorrow. i live in hertfordshire in a three bedroomed house which looks rather like a pig sty at the moment - a combination of kids on easter break, not clearing up after anybody for over a week, and typical adhd i'm struggling to get motivated to sort it out. Instead i'm here finding something else to do to distract me from housework.

Not only do i have adhd (taking concerta 54mg daily when i remember) but i have more recently been diagnosed (though for the 2nd time) as manic depressive (taking quetiapine 200mg nightly - which knocks me out for 10-12 hours usually - but somehow have forgotten over the last few days! - thus my mood has been a tad on the irritable, impulsive and today actually rather depressed side!)
- wooo whooo best of both worlds!

It's going to be great fun bringing home a new puppy tomorrow to mess and devastation - what am i thinking and -why am i not tidying?

my daughter is away for the week statying with friends in cornwall and i was supposed to be decorating her room (a several day job at my pace) - i have piles of washing and a load of ironing which has been left for so long i'll probably have to rewash it to get the creases out and i'm losing more and more floor space by the day to countless junk which seems to reproduce itself.

yet I have spent the last few days doing other things - spending money we didn't really have taking my son to a theme park, running round shopping for items i didn't really need and flitting from friend to friend's houses (as i over-booked myself as usual)not to mention looking for puppy supplies following falling in love with a lemon and white beagle earlier in the week - having to borrow a few hundred pounds to purchase her too - which i should really have geared towards home improvements - or more practically paying for my car insurance or paying a bill!

i am adding chaos to chaos yet i'm still driven to go all the way down to collect the beautiful little pup (3 and a half hours each way!)

but then that is just me - i know what i should be doing but somehow i cannot bring myself to do it.

and now i have wasted all of the time that i had available to tidy up and i feel absolutely exhausted . . . ready for bed! (have been managing of 3-4 hours - if that most nights this week - probably through forgetting to take quetiapine!)

judgement call i think it has to be time for bed - and i must remember to take my tablet and hope i wake up in a better frame of mind tomorrow! -otherwise i'll procrastinate for another few hours (not wanting to do housework) getting to bed after 2/3 am - i that happens i wont take my tablet as it will knock me out for so long and i will have my son awake early tomorrow - and then I will be as grumpy as hell for my 7 hour round trip and essential tidying that i must do before bringing puppy home!!!

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